Thursday, September 11, 2008

For You Have Known Me

ד כִּי אֵין מִלָּה, בִּלְשׁוֹנִי; הֵן יְהוָה, יָדַעְתָּ כֻלָּהּ. 4
For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O LORD, Thou knowest it altogether.

ה אָחוֹר וָקֶדֶם צַרְתָּנִי; וַתָּשֶׁת עָלַי כַּפֶּכָה. 5
Thou hast hemmed me in behind and before, and laid Thy hand upon me.

ו פלאיה (פְּלִיאָה) דַעַת מִמֶּנִּי; נִשְׂגְּבָה, לֹא-אוּכַל לָהּ. 6
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; too high, I cannot attain unto it.

ז אָנָה, אֵלֵךְ מֵרוּחֶךָ; וְאָנָה, מִפָּנֶיךָ אֶבְרָח. 7
Whither shall I go from Thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from Thy presence?

ח אִם אֶסַּק שָׁמַיִם, שָׁם אָתָּה; וְאַצִּיעָה שְּׁאוֹל הִנֶּךָּ. 8
If I ascend up into heaven, Thou art there; if I make my bed in the nether-world, behold, Thou art there.

ט אֶשָּׂא כַנְפֵי-שָׁחַר; אֶשְׁכְּנָה, בְּאַחֲרִית יָם. 9
If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea;

י גַּם-שָׁם, יָדְךָ תַנְחֵנִי; וְתֹאחֲזֵנִי יְמִינֶךָ. 10
Even there would Thy hand lead me, and Thy right hand would hold me.

יא וָאֹמַר, אַךְ-חֹשֶׁךְ יְשׁוּפֵנִי; וְלַיְלָה, אוֹר בַּעֲדֵנִי. 11
And if I say: 'Surely the darkness shall envelop me, and the light about me shall be night';

יב גַּם-חֹשֶׁךְ, לֹא-יַחְשִׁיךְ מִמֶּךָּ:
וְלַיְלָה, כַּיּוֹם יָאִיר-- כַּחֲשֵׁיכָה, כָּאוֹרָה. 12
Even the darkness is not too dark for Thee, {N}
but the night shineth as the day; the darkness is even as the light.

יג כִּי-אַתָּה, קָנִיתָ כִלְיֹתָי; תְּסֻכֵּנִי, בְּבֶטֶן אִמִּי. 13
For Thou hast made my reins; Thou hast knit me together in my mother's womb.

יד אוֹדְךָ-- עַל כִּי נוֹרָאוֹת, נִפְלֵיתִי:
נִפְלָאִים מַעֲשֶׂיךָ; וְנַפְשִׁי, יֹדַעַת מְאֹד. 14
I will give thanks unto Thee, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; {N}
wonderful are Thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.

~Psalm 139

You know my every word and thought; you know my every desire and wish. I cannot flee from you, even if I wished it; even my mind is encircled by You. You illuminate the darkness, and give me hope again. God, you have known me, and will know my heart; you will judge me; by you I will abide. Search me, God, to know my heart, and may man be as willing to search me, before he damns me.


Anonymous said...

Chana-Evryone who knows you well would never judge your intentions as faulty.Nobody who truly recognizes you would damn you for anything, as the purity of heart that is behind every decision you make is staring them in the face and they know that truth and justice is all you seek. I am sure some of them have said things that have sounded that they don't appreciate or see al of the above-but the sin lies i n them for not letting all that they know about you control what they say out of anger.But there is no way anyone
who knows you could think anything else of you.
p.s. yesterdays email from "the list" might be very helpful to you

Anonymous said...

u sound like laughter and fun is what u want right now-well we know u love nothing more than fun challenged-so check out todays daf and see if u can come up with a proof to a question your dealing with right now(prob not a great one-but fascinating nonetheless)

Anonymous said...

*a fun challenge

Anonymous said...

"and may man be as willing to search me, before he damns me."

Chana,some men(as well as some women) are not capable of searching and will use whatever techniques available to make others feel responsible for their issues. Also,your knowledge base and the way you carry yourself intimidate quite a few and I'm saying this based on my many observations. Let the hurts slide(I know it's not easy) and don't ever change your ways for they are refreshing.
Hope you'll cheer- up soon and shower people with that gorgeous smile of yours.

Anonymous said...

I am but an anonymous so there is no reason you should care-but you have my full support for everything you do and whatever help I could offer is there for the taking-think not what peoples opinions are, rather who it is they believe in ans would assist no matter what the case.