Wednesday, January 25, 2012


Love is an emotion that suffuses me; it washes over me like the cleansing rain. I am filled with it, replete with it; it is an airy substance that is insubstantial and yet integral. Love comes upon me in waves, like an ocean. It rises and subsides. I feel love for my children.

I find that I feel love for what I admire. I admire my children because I think the way that they try so hard is amazing. I am impressed by their effort and by the amazing results they produce. I find their insights and their questions to be fascinating. I am thrilled and touched by how their minds work. I love these questions that are so simple and yet to which I often have no answer. Oftentimes I simply haven't thought of them before.

I also find that I feel love for something beautifully executed. When I see a sport played to perfection, when I see a play performed with joy and integrity, when I see somebody transformed by who they become when they are lost within the passion and the joy of an experience, I feel a surge of love towards them, sometimes even a oneness with them.

In these moments, all I want to do is find a way to pass on this feeling of gladness and joy to the children who create the feeling in me. I want them to see how much I value them and their achievements and accomplishments. I want them to realize that I love that they climbed the mountain and that I think the sight of them standing on the tip is breathtaking. I want them to see how incredible I think they are. In these moments, what I want to do most of all is share.

I admire my children. I admire the effort they put into their work, their questions, their intelligence, their passions and the things which they do well. I find them to be made in the image of God and I find that this shines through whether they wish it to or not. I am gladdened by them and I find my days to be less weary because of them.

They also make me laugh. They entertain me and their antics in class amuse me. We have the "Sassy Much?" slogan in one class and various other catchphrases in other classes. I'm still working on learning how to be better at classroom discipline and firmness, but I know I've got the love part down. And I know that this is what drives me when I feel sad.

Who knew that love for a child could be such an uplifting force? It's not even a child's love for me. I'm not in their hearts and I don't know what they feel. But I know what I feel towards them and even that is enough to make the difference. They are treasures- sometimes frustrating, disrespectful, authority-challenging, difficult people- but treasures nonetheless. And I feel like God has Chosen me to work with them and I struggle to try to ensure that I am worthy of His Choice.

Love floats banners and carries ships; it buoys me up and sinks my discomfort. It is the magical antidote to misery, and for me there is something specific to the love of children that makes it matter more.


Sage advice said...

It's obvious that the first year of teaching is "a learning experience" for ALL involved.
however, You should be, or are, aware of one major difference between a teacher's methods of teaching and a teacher's methods of discipline.
The former can easily be altered, changed or modified anytime during the year.
The latter is very difficult to adjust or reform. Once the students recognize, or perceive, a "style", then they feel rebellious if the teacher tries to get tougher in any way.
Unless the new toughness comes from another source. i.e. the Principal.
So, if you want to be a stricter teacher, better luck next year...

Alex said...

Seen your blog..its really amazing and Nice Sharing as well...

Anonymous said...

This is very inspirational. Thank you. And God bless your soul.

Rabbi Jonathan Sachs said...

What an article. This piece is very admirable. Your work is astonishing. These posts about your students are quite interesting. Keep up the good work!

Masquerader said...

When are we having the unmasking for your Masquerade?

therapydoc said...

I love this post.