Have done with death and sickness and leave her be.
- Chaya Mitchell- Chaya Rivka bas Sheindel Sarah.
Chaya has had her fifth relapse after four unsuccessful trials of chemotherapy plus other standard treatments. The tumor has progressed, and she has lost mobility on one side of her body. She needs our tefilos, especially the power and zechuyos they create when we unite together as one klal.
I wrote this once for Tanielle:
- But I knew her. We all knew her, we saw her, and unfortunately, as is often the way with people, we did not appreciate her until she was called away from us. We did not realize the power of the quiet glow she shed, or perhaps simply the power of mortality. The fact that one human life can mean so much, even when we did not truly know her.
I don't want to have to write this for Chaya.
So damn it, God, leave her alone.
I know her...we took the bus home together in elementary school- I wasn't in her grade, but I still know her, talked to her a bit, and when I read these words about her, I don't even accept them because it doesn't even make sense. Chaya Mitchell, paralyzed? Chaya Mitchell, suffering from cancer? Who the hell are you talking about? This isn't anybody I know. I don't even feel any emotion as I write this, because I still don't think it's true.
I won't think it's true. Damn it, damn it, damn it, how many lives do you mean to steal away, God? This is Pesach! This is the holiday of spring, of joy, of redemption, so go and redeem her and cure her and help her to be well.
But I still don't think it's true...I won't know it's true until I see her, and as I won't see her, I'll think this is all an abstraction. I won't feel anything; I can't feel anything until I see her, and if I would see her it would hurt me, so I can't- she probably doesn't even remember me; it's not like we were friends or close, but still, but still! God, please, not another terrible debilitating illness, not another death. She's too young; she hasn't lived yet, and what kind of life are you giving her by hurting her like this? We've had enough, enough; it is enough, dayenu!